today sucked

I'm not gonna lie. 

today sucked. 

it started with a routine appointment that quickly disintegrated into a reiteration of my cancer diagnosis and subsequent treatment with a doctor who was treating me for an entirely unrelated matter, and frankly seemed to want to information for his own sake and not mine.

he very melodramatically told me how terrible it all was (i was like, 'oh really?

I hadn't really thought about it like that before') 

he finished up by telling me i was lucky to be confronted with my mortality whilst bringing new life into the world.

oh. my....

the end of my day was less confrontational but more disheartening visiting a specialist in menopause after breast cancer.  i paid her $180 to tell me that i could take an anti-depressant if my hot flashes were unbearable, but the appointment mostly consisted of her congratulating me on how well i was handling it all.

that's why i went.

to be told i'm doing a good job.

so thanks very much specialists of adelaide with all of your enlightening and lively conversation for this lil' breast cancer survivor.

not worth the babysitting i had to organise i'll tell you that for free.

so...enough of the griping!

Soul has had a fever today and literally just fell asleep in my arms (unheard of!) so he's all tucked up in bed despite it only being 6.30pm. I can hear the chatter of True and Brave in the shower. 

Such rad conversations.

Here's an excerpt....'i don't even have shadows.' 'i thought you were a bad guy but i'm batman' 'sorry batman i'm robin'.

superheros are big round these parts.

actually now i think about it 'bad guys' are too. not really sure who counts as a bad guy tho. True assures me it's all about the facial expression, so there's a tip for new players!